Eric and I were both touchy, feely type people which made for a wonderful intimate relationship. We loved to hold hands and Eric always had his arm around me in public. For the longest time we were teased by fellow congregates for the kiss that Eric always gave me at the end of the service. In private our bond was deep. We had become one.
This week will make eight weeks since I have been held by my beloved. I will admit that this new life is a bit lonely. I long for his touch and hope someday the Lord will allow me to enjoy a sweet intimacy with another man. But, in the meantime, I have trusted God's Word that He will provide for my needs as a widow. So, I just automatically believe that God will supply my intimate needs as well. He has protected me so far and kept my mind from
wandering where it should not which I am truly amazed by.
Whew! This is not an easy subject to write about but I am almost positive that the majority of you out there are wondering how you make it without intimacy for long periods of time. As many of my closest friends know this is truly a miracle that God is performing in my life right now. I am a bit fearful about what the future holds and how long I will have to go without a man's touch but in the same breathe I pray that the Lord will show me His mercy in the future
as He is doing right now.