This morning I woke up and decided to go for a walk. The weather has been incredible the last couple of months so I took advantage of the time and scooted on out the door. As I walked I prayed. I asked the Lord to calm my restless heart and to remind me that He is my husband. After praising Him for all that He has done I started to pray for specific requests.
I have been praying for there to be some resolution on the van. I have been praying for the financial side of my life to calm down. My biggest prayer request has been for a new husband.
O-kay, for some of you this is going to be a shock. How could I be already thinking of marrying again when I just lost my husband? If I could have Eric back I would do anything to make that happen but God is drawing me forward not backward. I miss Eric terribly and know that becoming a help mate to another man would not be wise at this time. But, I am praying for the man I hope God will bring into my life in the future.
Let's face it...it is going to take an extraordinary man and a miracle on God's part. I am no longer in my twenties (or thirties for that matter!), I have six children (two of whom are from another country), I am adamant on home schooling, and my theology is a bit hard for some to swallow (reformed).
As I was praying for the things that I would love to have in a husband I started to get worried that maybe this would be too big of a task for God. When you are young they say don't settle for less than what you are looking for...can I really be that picky now? Should I really be asking for a man who makes me laugh? I love to laugh and truly love to smile....all the time. As I was walking and starting to tear up the Lord reminded me of an answer to prayer that He gave me on Sunday.
After our church service on Sunday one of our toddlers disappeared. We had an all out search for this kiddo for what seemed like forever. I saw my friend, the mother, starting to get distressed about the situation and felt the Lord telling me to go over and pray with her. I did and while I was praying I asked that if this little guy was hiding from us that he would come out of his hiding place. As we said Amen our friend's mother looked up and saw, through the window, the little guy coming out of a cabinet in a room right behind where we were standing. God answered that prayer ever so quickly. I ran into the room and scooped up the little guy hugging him all the way to his mother. We were incredibly grateful for the quick response.
So, back to my walk...the Lord reminded me that He does answer specific prayers. I just burst out in praise as I realized that He had given me this wonderful remembrance to bring peace to my heart. Isn't He awesome?
Remember at the beginning of this post I said that I had been specifically asking the Lord to solve our van problem? Our van supposedly had transmission problems and needed a replacement. I got a call this afternoon from a repair shop who did test after test to find out that there is nothing wrong with the transmission. Nothing!
I am in tears right now just thinking about His goodness and faithfulness to this very humbled servant. Needless to say, I will be walking and praying again tomorrow.