After so many hard days of grieving in the past couple of weeks I am very happy to announce that today was a good day.
It helped that the weather was absolutely beautiful. No more nasty haze from the fires and the breeze made it feel like fall had already arrived. We opened the windows and enjoyed the fresh air.
I was given a big bucket of ripe roma tomatoes which I promptly put into a water bath. After Brown Sugar and I took the skins off of the red beauties we added them to a pot of sauteed onions, garlic, merlot, and spices. The aroma was enticing. That truly was one of the first times that I had actually cooked since Eric had died. I love to cook but find it emotionally exhausting at this time. Cooking was not a duty for me but rather a pleasure. I can't say that I enjoyed it today but I took a huge step down the path of grief.
The kids and I also accomplished much more cleaning today then we have in the past few months. It felt good to have a day where we were all home working together. We have much more to accomplish.
One of the ways that I am working through my grief is to allow myself to cry. But, that just does not seem to be enough. I go to the chiropractor three days a week which helps reduce the strain on my neck and shoulders but I had to go the extra step. I had a deep muscle massage today to help relieve the stress on my body. I can't say it felt good. It hurt. It hurt bad. I will have quite a few of these over the next couple of months to work out the knots in my muscles.
I am humbled by the comments that have been left by those who are just beginning to find my blog and read the story of my life over the last six months. I am humbled by the way the Lord is using this blog to help others love deeply and live life to its fullest. Thank you for passing this blog onto your friends. To God be all the glory.