Little Known Facts

I am going to attempt to answer a few questions that I have had asked of me over the past couple of months. First off, I have had many questions on what the final diagnosis was for Eric. The death certificate states that Eric died of Bronchial Asthma. I still think there is a bit of a mystery in this. The autopsy showed that his lungs and heart were in pink condition leading us to the conclusion that his lungs were not in distress. But, his bronchial tubes and his esophagus were filled with mucous. I believe that he was having severe allergic reactions to something...I just do not know what. We were attempting to find that out in the
few months before he passed away into Glory.

Many of you have asked how I am doing financially. I have a financial adviser who happens to be a very successful business man and Lisa's dad. He has been treating me and my family as his own and I will never be able to thank him for his work on my behalf. He talked to one of his lawyers on my behalf and providentially his lawyer knew Eric and almost lost his adult son to asthma also. So, this gentleman is working on my behalf pro bono. Again, I can't thank him enough as he works on my will and trust for my kids and as he fights the insurance company that is not wanting to pay.

When it comes to making it every month I can only say thank you to so many of you who helped support us during this incredibly hard time. All of your gifts paid our bills from February to May. In May I started to get Social Security. This amount would not allow me to stay home but our church community has seen fit to make up the difference each month. They will continue to do this until the Lord provides me another husband. I am blessed!

Eric left me with quite a few insurance policies which will allow me to pay off the house and any other debt that we have. I am fully aware that most woman do not have all that I have. I am surrounded by incredible people and have been given great resources. I do not take this for granted and thank the Lord for giving me a husband that took care of me even after he has gone on to bigger and better things.

Spiritually I am seriously diving in the Word of God daily and depend on it to keep me going. My oversight elder, Fletch, has graciously taken on Goose for me. He is meeting with him weekly to go through Back to Basics and mentor Goose as he works with his own boys. I have friends who continuously call, ask, admonish, and encourage me through this time of sorrow. As often as we can the kids and I all sit down at night and read the Word of God, sing some songs, pray together and learn a Psalm from the Psalter. I cherish these times as they just develop our family unity all the more.

Keeping up with the house chores and schooling is quite enough for me but I am also going to start teaching piano again. I am also working on writing music again. I have quite a few old hymns that I am creating new melodies for to reintroduce these classics to the church. It is truly one of the sweet ways that the Lord has given me to worship Him and relieve stress.

Some of you know about my eyes but I rarely talk about it...not sure why. So, here goes... I have a genetic disorder that is causing damage to my retina. It is a complicated disorder and I have been given anywhere from five to fifteen years to be completely blind. I have been on this journey for five years now and I have lost some vision but happily see most everything. I have stopped driving at night because darkness is one of my enemies. The sun, or any light, is either my friend or enemy. I have to wear sunglasses to protect my eyes and because the sun is too bright but the light is really helpful in reading and such. I have lost my reading ability in one eye and my depth perception is a bit off. I just feel like I have such to be thankful for as I am still able to see and I now have a Doctor that is not all too sure about the gloomy prediction of the Stanford Doctors. His conclusion is that we do not know enough about genetic problems to say there is no hope or no cure. I agree. I am on some very powerful vitamins and usually keep to a healthy diet. I say usually because the past six months
I have just eaten whatever is being fed me.

Wow! What a lot of information! Is there anything else that you want to know about us? I will try my best to answer your questions.
~Lazyd