Monday, December 1, 2008


This morning, as I drove out to horse lessons, I heard "O Holy Night" playing on the radio. Not unusual at this time of the year and neither are tears. But, these tears were different. I was shocked to realize that I was crying tears of joy.
My tears were not because I missed Eric (although I still do). They were not because I was lonely or upset. I was rejoicing! I was praising the Lord through those tears.
Eric is doing what we all should be desiring to do.

Fall on your knees
O hear the angels voices
O night devine
O night when Christ was born

It was a momentary thought that made those tears roll down my face. The thought that Eric no longer is going to celebrate Christmas on this earth because he is celebrating the essence of Christmas in the PRESENCE of Christ!

I feel as though I have turned a corner in my grief. Yes, it still hurts and yes I know I will have those good days and bad days but there is something different going on here. It is called healing.
Last night as I was praying and meditating on God's Word I was driven to the verses in
Zephaniah 3
Do not fear;
Zion, let not your hands be weak.
17 The LORD your God in your midst,
The Mighty One, will save;
He will rejoice over you with gladness,
He will quiet you with His love,
He will rejoice over you with singing.”

He is singing over me...The Mighty One is saving me...He is quieting my heart with His love.
It really is the best Christmas gift ever!


not2brightGRAM said...

Rejoice!!! That is wonderful to hear.

O Holy Night has always been, and will probably always be, hands-down, my FAVORITE Christmas hymn. It often brings me to tears, too.

godlover said...

Oh I'm so glad to hear that you are healing. Praise God! He is ever faithful to us, ever loving. He is our healing. Body, mind, and Spirit. He know what ails us and He knows what heals us. And every situation is different, every person is different. But God remains the same. He desires us to be well. What an awesome God we have.

Matt M said...

What station was that on? You should get R.C. Sproul's new Christmas CD, 'The Word was made Flesh,' absolutely WONDERFUL music.

Jennifer said...

WOW!!! I love that verse... God spoke this verse to me on Monday and I now have it on the refrigerator while I am working on memorizing it. The boys and I had a long discussion on how God quiets us with His love - thanks for the great example!