One way that I deal with the grieving process is to keep working. One of the ways that I have kept myself busy since coming home is by moving furniture around and planning future ideas for the house. So, my days have been filled with laundry, organizing, and shuffling furniture. The rest of our time has been filled with getting together with friends.
Hopefully next week I will be able to share some photos with you of our home makeover. But, in the meantime, would you please pray that I would feel God's comfort and peace during this next week? I know it will be one of the hardest emotional mountains to climb. Tuesday would have been our 21st anniversary. Last year we not only joyfully celebrated our 20th anniversary with a dinner party but we also renewed our vows. I continue to go over those vows in my mind and can not believe that only six months after repeating them I found myself a widow. I can not translate into words how much I loved Eric. I am incredibly thrilled for his "graduation" into glory but the path here on earth is incredibly lonely without him.