Thursday, August 28, 2008

What I Got Done

So, for the past couple of days my life has been all about curriculum, books, copying, and organization. I have four children doing formal book work this year. Two in high school, one in junior high, and one in grade school. I was able to get the majority of the copying done for their binders, get the reading lists organized and get a couple subjects planned out for the year. I have a couple more items that need to be taken care of and a little help needed by Goose and Daisy who are up in Oregon with my sister right now. I can't thank the Schroedi family enough for taking the kids for the last couple of days. And a big thank you goes to Lisa for creating Lil' Cowboy's binder for this year.

Another huge hurdle is coming up this week. Eric had worked hard on creating a family camp for our church. Eric LOVED being outdoors and in the mountains. We found a great place for our family camp right before Eric died. The deacons at our church have taken on the task of keeping the family camp alive. We have been looking forward to this BUT we also know that this will not be easy. First off, we spent every Labor day up at this particular lake. We loved boating and camping up there with friends. Eric memories are all over this place. I would love to back out of going but I know that we need to do this. We need to walk into the pain once more. It seems that I walk out of one painful episode of life and into another. Anyway, we will take our trailer up and try to enjoy the fun, fellowship, and food of camp life.
I am sure I will have wonderful photos to post when I get home.


CristyLynn said...

We'll be praying for you! And I do look forward to seeing your pictures.
Please tell the kids hello for me and Isaiah (and Thomas, too, I suppose, but he's not here right now to actually say so).

Alesha said...

I'm sure that you don't feel very "brave" some days. It seems you're having to face a new "first" without Eric almost every week. BUT you ARE very COURAGEOUS in that you don't "wimp" out on most of these things! You know they are good for the children and so you press forward.

However, may I gently remind you of this? There is no "right" or "wrong" timetable for grieving. Sometimes we want to push through the pain just so we can get it over with. That may not be exactly what the Lord would have us do in every situation.

Sometimes, we may have to delay our forward motion in order to simply "be still and know" that He is Who He says He is.

I think you are very brave for leaning so hard on the Lord and for being so honest about your grieving. It's OK, though, for you to feel like not doing things that you know are going to be painful. It's also OK, occasionally, to be "wimpy" and sit at home and cry.

All that to say, whatever the LORD lays on your heart is OK - whether to be strong and go on this weekend trip, or to decide it's just too much to handle right now.

God knows what is best and He will pour out His wisdom on you as you go to Him for guidance.

Sorry this was so long. I pray for you every time your write a new post.

Cheryl's friend,

godlover said...

Looking forward to the photos and I'm sure you will have a wonderful time. There might be a few tears, maybe more than a few, but that's okay. Every one will understand. Some of the best moments of grief are spent in tears. Take care and continue to lean on the Lord for support for He will never disappoint you. He will always be there when and where you need Him. Looking back I can see that I would have suffered less if I'd had a few things to do besides wallow in my pain and self-centeredness. You are blessed to have so many people reaching out to you during this horrible time. I ask God's blessing on each and every one of those dear people who continue to offer you so much. It is a testimony to Eric. He must have been an incredible guy for so many people to reach out to you and your family during your time of letting go. Bless you, Heather, and have a good time.


Erin said...

It sounds like a lovely time - both the kid-free planning time and the camping coming up. I will be praying for you. Wish we could join you! Family camp sounds fun. :)

Rebeca said...

I hope the camping trip will go well. You continue to be in my prayers.

Amanda P said...

So you've no idea who I am, but I've been peeping at your blog awhile. I've been so blessed and encouraged at the way you've held fast to our Jesus in this hard time. Your children will surely call you blessed. :) You are on my mind a lot, and I'll continue to pray for you, especially the start of school transition (we start this week)

In His Grace,